I’m waiting but I don’t know what I’m waiting for Jump in, I lock all the doors I don’t know where home is But she does the job When I can’t speak but I need to scream She hums me to sleep and I’m numbed deep She knows I lie but that’s why I have a key fob Ohhh let me drive faster than I can think Let me hear nothing but just your ticks and clinks Don’t say a word as I self destruct But I still sing and scratch my lungs as if I never gave a fuck When I no longer feel alive And all I wanna do is drive Reckless, impulsive, careless At least I’m high I can’t speak but I need to scream I need you dear cuz I’m numbed deep She knows I lie but that’s why I let her meet my eyes Ohhh let me drive faster than I can think Let me hear nothing but just your ticks and clinks Don’t say a word as I self destruct But I still sing and scratch my lungs as if I never gave a fuck Ohhh let me drive faster than I can think Let me hear nothing but just your ticks and clinks Don’t say a word as I self destruct But I still sing and scratch my lungs as if I never gave a fuck Ohhh let me drive faster than I can feel Intoxicated, no surprise you take the wheel Don’t say a word as I self destruct But I still sing and scratch my lungs Cuz I can’t help but give a fuck

O, who did you die for O, I did it all wrong O, what the hell did I die for? O, have I told you I’m gone? Snow, I’ll tell you what it looks like The rain, it smells when it’s strong O, I wish I could show you the world And I owe you more than a song Little babe, I wish I had known Too late, I wish I knew before Little babe, oh does it hurt me And I have gone and wasted what you covet and just what you died for Was there no room for two of us? If god had cared I’d only be a Thought, a wistful daydream Instead I filled a void but not enough I’m stuck between a rock and a Realization that I’m a Paradox, anomaly What do I give up now for love So, did you read my diary O, did you watch me go to school And oh, did you notice when it started I know, I’m such a fucking fool Little babe, I knew something was wrong Deep down, I wish I knew before Little babe, oh does it hurt me And I have gone and wasted what you covet and just what you died for Was there no room for two of us? And all the times I wished I was a Thought, a wistful daydream Instead I lived but that was not enough I cry to you of loss and love But sitting here I’m nothing but a Paradox, anomaly Would you have better spent your love Do you feel angry, sad, ashamed? Do you forgive me for the pain? Is everything I’ve done in vain? An afterlife of guilt and shame? Pills and parchment, paper cuts, I sent Letters to gods that I don’t believe in Is everything I’ve done in vain? What have I wasted in your name, O?